yeah, I do love making you laugh and laugh hard. because I know at that very moment, you are the furthest away from the things that hurt you. - JmStorm swoon. there's healing in darkness and light.
Tag Archives: Healing
Food for Thought…
"It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror or another loving, caring human being." John Joseph Powell
The free soul…
"The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them." -Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Madness
The night…
Excerpted from An Imperfect Geometry, by Elisa Diaz Castelo and translated by Robin Myers
The night too has long bones. It’s the moon, papered in scars. Its light still knocks hollow against the walls. I wrote you a letter once. I waited for you at the banks of the final hour and dipped my feet in the river. But the years are skittish cats that don’t return. And the outside goes on: the day rusts and darkens. My body is made of those gray and graceless city birds. They hop across the pavement without style. They don’t even know they can fly. But my blood is round and poisonous. And the heart fumbling along. What I mean to say is my pen ran out of ink and you weren’t there. The window broke and it rained inside the house all night. You weren’t there. The lights went out. There were no candles. I mean to say that countdown, that sleep and fitfulness, that I’m running out of time. My blood will soothe its doubt. I’ll forget the names of my bones. I mean to say that this will pass and you won’t be there.
Too Much
There is a sky inside you and it is made of flames and it is made of rain. But you refuse to release it because someone you loved once told you that you are too much to handle when you unleash all of your beauty, your passion, your vulnerability. You are too much when you are raw. So instead, you hide it. You hold in the storms you slowly let the fire die. All because you think how no one can handle your truth, your courage, your pain. -Nikita Gill As I learn to hold Myself, I learn to release my fullness and those that are meant to be in my life will remain. Being "complicated" and "too much" is a gift. -JP.
Departure
I This wind sighing recalls certain things. I warned you: Beware of it: Passion has wings; And will return with the year’s return Like a bird on migrant wings. This wind sighing recalls Certain half-remembered things. II You have left something of you behind. But you went with eager step, Fearful, lest what you have left behind Should halt your eager step. When the lean years bring you back, You will be as one Who has laughed the lean years with strange men; You will be different then. III Beyond the gate of the sun I shall not seek you: Before the last days are done You have sung your last song, You have played your last tune, You have danced your steps too soon. It is not easy When great moments are so few: Beyond the gate of the sun I shall not seek you. -Chaman Lall
feast on it
your healing is on its way to you have you made room for its arrival? turn on the lights turn up the music let it know that you are home that you are ready for your new day that you believe your new day belongs to you you deserve your healing, feast on it. -Cleo Wade Could not love this more. If today is not your "new day," know that it will arrive. You deserve it, my friend. JP
Saint Francis and the Sow
The bud stands for all things, even for those things that don’t flower, for everything flowers, from within, of self-blessing; though sometimes it is necessary to reteach a thing its loveliness, to put a hand on its brow of the flower and retell it in words and in touch it is lovely until it flowers again from within, of self-blessing; as Saint Francis put his hand on the creased forehead of the sow, and told her in words and in touch blessings of earth on the sow, and the sow began remembering all down her thick length, from the earthen snout all the way through the fodder and slops to the spiritual curl of the tail, from the hard spininess spiked out from the spine down through the great broken heart to the sheer blue milken dreaminess spurting and shuddering from the fourteen teats into the fourteen mouths sucking and blowing beneath them: the long, perfect loveliness of sow. -Galway Kinnell
I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud
I wandered lonely as a cloud That floats on high o'er vales and hills, When all at once I saw a crowd, A host, of golden daffodils; Beside the lake, beneath the trees, Fluttering and dancing in the breeze. Continuous as the stars that shine And twinkle on the milky way, They stretched in never-ending line Along the margin of a bay: Ten thousand saw I at a glance, Tossing their heads in sprightly dance. The waves beside them danced; but they Out-did the sparkling waves in glee: A poet could not but be gay, In such a jocund company: I gazed—and gazed—but little thought What wealth the show to me had brought: For oft, when on my couch I lie In vacant or in pensive mood, They flash upon that inward eye Which is the bliss of solitude; And then my heart with pleasure fills, And dances with the daffodils. -William Wordsworth
…that is all
I was listening to a talk tonight and someone said, "Who are you when you aren't believing something is wrong with you." And...damn...that is all -Cleo Wade-
A Poem by Sarah Ruhl
Standing four feet apart,
you take one edge of the sheet,
I take the other.
We walk towards one another,
creating order.
Like solemn campers folding a flag
in the early morning light.
But this is no flag.
This is where we love and sleep.
There was a time we forgot to do this—
to fold with and toward one another,
to make the edges clean together.
My grandmother might have said:
There is always more laundry to do–
and that is a blessing because it means
you did more living
which means you get to do more cleaning.
We forgot for a while
that one large blanket
is too difficult for one chin to hold
and two hands to fold alone—
That there is more beauty
in the walking toward the fold,
and in the shared labor.
There's so much these particular words stir in me, at this particular time: how polarized our country feels, how we don't look one another in the eye, say hello and give a warm smile. We see differences as something to argue about instead of something to embrace. It's distressing. But then a friend reminds me in not so many words; it's my job to change my world. I find eyes -- I smile. I say hello. My world changes. We need to fight. For community. For human-ness. For connection. Let's walk toward the fold, my friends. Together. With love, JP.
My sweet darling
My sweet darling, all these tears, this hurt, the pain in your heart, do not fight it anymore, it is a gift, you see, to feel this much and even though it's hard it means you're alive with each of these tearful breaths gasped your soul awakens, more alive in the pain than you were in the numb, you are coming back to me now, my love, lucid in this darkness- so cry aloud, yell, and fall, and I will be here waiting to catch you when the waking up is done. -Atticus
Notes on the Term Survivor:
I need you to know I loved her enough to lie to everyone who knew me about how bad it got. I need you to know there is a bullet lodged between my ribs in the shape of her holy mouth. I need you to know the night the neighbors saw what they did, when I took back my voice finally found the strength to call her a monster, I woke up the next morning and I did not feel brave. I woke up feeling like the love of my life is a monster which is the opposite of triumph. Which is the whole world Dropped. Clattering across the hardwood floor. We talk about survival like it's a thing that makes you stronger. -Marianne David (adapted)
one hundred twenty
What you couldn't see coming. What you didn't expect. What you weren't prepared for. The blind side. The black smoke. The descent. It will gulp your tears, drain your blood, and wipe your slate clean. Game over. That's when you bite back, tear your gaping heart open wider, and start again. You start again. -Tanya Markul As many times as you need to. You start again.
You Can’t Have It All
But you can have the fig tree and its fat leaves like clown hands
gloved with green. You can have the touch of a single eleven-year-old finger
on your cheek, waking you at one a.m. to say the hamster is back.
You can have the purr of the cat and the soulful look
of the black dog, the look that says, If I could I would bite
every sorrow until it fled, and when it is August,
you can have it August and abundantly so. You can have love,
though often it will be mysterious, like the white foam
that bubbles up at the top of the bean pot over the red kidneys
until you realize foam’s twin is blood.
You can have the skin at the center between a man’s legs,
so solid, so doll-like. You can have the life of the mind,
glowing occasionally in priestly vestments, never admitting pettiness,
never stooping to bribe the sullen guard who’ll tell you
all roads narrow at the border.
You can speak a foreign language, sometimes,
and it can mean something. You can visit the marker on the grave
where your father wept openly. You can’t bring back the dead,
but you can have the words forgive and forget hold hands
as if they meant to spend a lifetime together. And you can be grateful
for makeup, the way it kisses your face, half spice, half amnesia, grateful
for Mozart, his many notes racing one another towards joy, for towels
sucking up the drops on your clean skin, and for deeper thirsts,
for passion fruit, for saliva. You can have the dream,
the dream of Egypt, the horses of Egypt and you riding in the hot sand.
You can have your grandfather sitting on the side of your bed,
at least for a while, you can have clouds and letters, the leaping
of distances, and Indian food with yellow sauce like sunrise.
You can’t count on grace to pick you out of a crowd
but here is your friend to teach you how to high jump,
how to throw yourself over the bar, backwards,
until you learn about love, about sweet surrender,
and here are periwinkles, buses that kneel, farms in the mind
as real as Africa. And when adulthood fails you,
you can still summon the memory of the black swan on the pond
of your childhood, the rye bread with peanut butter and bananas
your grandmother gave you while the rest of the family slept.
There is the voice you can still summon at will, like your mother’s,
it will always whisper, you can’t have it all,
but there is this.
-Barbara Ras
…but there is this.
The Gift
Be still, my soul, and steadfast. Earth and heaven both are still watching though time is draining from the clock and your walk, that was confident and quick, has become slow. So, be slow if you must, but let the heart still play its true part. Love still as once you loved, deeply and without patience. Let God and the world know you are grateful. That the gift has been given. -Mary Oliver
Let go…
let go of the past. empty hands are easier to hold. -cwpoet
The spirit is never holding us back from an attitude adjustment, only the ego does that. -Cleo Wade
A Rabbit Noticed My Condition
I was sad one day and went for a walk; I sat in a field. A rabbit noticed my condition and came near. It often does not take more than that to help at times- to just be close to creatures who are so full of knowing, so full of love that they don't -chat, they just gaze with their marvelous understanding. -St. John of the Cross
A Hundred Objects Close By
I know a cure for sadness:
Let your hands touch something that
makes your eyes
smile.
I bet there are a hundred objects close by
that can do that.
Look at
beauty's gift to us-
her power is so great she enlivens
the earth, the sky, our
soul.
-Mira